Are You Defiled Already?

John 18:28 Then they took Jesus from Caiaphas to Pilate's headquarters. It was early in the morning. They themselves did not enter the headquarters, so as to avoid ritual defilement and to be able to eat the Passover. Almost all of us view all those who tortured Jesus with disgust. We find it obvious that they were lost and even evil people. That is probably why no parent named their child Pontius Pilate. I however want to draw attention to the words of St John. He says that, these people who we view as "bad and evil", did not enter the headquarters, or the place where Jesus was to be questioned, and probably tortured, to avoid being defiled. This implies that they did not think of themselves as just "average" holy, but "very" holy. So this got me thinking. Applied to today's world,  what do I do as a Christian, that is wrong before the eyes of Jesus,  yet in my heart I think that am holy? Anything that does not conform to main message in His last words:- John 13:34‭-‬35 "I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. Just as I have loved you, you also should love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.” Do I bring love in all that I do as a mother, a policeman, a preacher, a doctor, an official. Not as a feeling, but out of obedience to this command of Jesus? These guys were " just doing their job". These are words that we use so often. They help us get through tasks that hurt people, yet we feel that they have to be done. We use them, in our hearts, or loudly, to tell ourselves that even after hurting this person, you are still holy. You are still undefiled. What is my present day "ritual defilement"? Could it be the impatience I have with those around me because am rushing to go to church? Could it be the over aggressive driving behaviour as I rush to attend mass? Could it be the self-absolved- self- righteous behaviour, that prevents the needy from speaking to me about their needs? Could it be my general demeanour, that makes my neighbours not to desire to know "this Christ"? Could it be the sinful person that I ignore, because I have no time for arguments, or because I need "my peace"? Am I what I think I am?